Ambien CR = friend for the next three weeks
Two days left with my laughter-embedded students and my ugly ass classroom.
Four days left with friends who know me better than anyone ever has, and I'm finally okay with that.
I suddenly don't feel one bit excited for leaving and this opportunity. Laura and I were talking and walking when we both decided we like the friends we have and don't want new ones. Okay so that's only sort of true. However, I must be tired/overwhelmed/depressed, because I don't feel motivated to put all the work and risk into new people. It's not the city or the distance, it's leaving the people I love (and it's only a few that I'm leaving behind in this little town - few but mighty) that is making my heart race while I force my eyes shut.
I hope Thursday night brings the closure I need to leave a wake of contentment.
Four days left with friends who know me better than anyone ever has, and I'm finally okay with that.
I suddenly don't feel one bit excited for leaving and this opportunity. Laura and I were talking and walking when we both decided we like the friends we have and don't want new ones. Okay so that's only sort of true. However, I must be tired/overwhelmed/depressed, because I don't feel motivated to put all the work and risk into new people. It's not the city or the distance, it's leaving the people I love (and it's only a few that I'm leaving behind in this little town - few but mighty) that is making my heart race while I force my eyes shut.
I hope Thursday night brings the closure I need to leave a wake of contentment.
I'm going to take a picture of Jonathan and I in a London Starbucks just for you. Hang it on your wall and laugh.
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nrlaumei |
9:15 AM